About Growing Up With a Foot on the Autism Spectrum NLD, by Anita Bekker Larsen

By December 12, 2018NVLD Bloggers

Have tried as best I can with and translate my story from Norwegian to English.

I hope to be able to give others an understanding of NLD, a Functions derogatory who can provide a lot of invisible, despite the difficulties that I have problems with writing, with to get it to look good, and to put it function into a context. I have e therefore decided to write a little about my experience with the NLD.

I was diagnosed with NLD in 2018, at the age of 51. I was from 6-years of age a child it was created much wonder around. It was concluded that I as a child had a poorly developed identity and sense of reality. I was perceived as a destructive, immature children who had problems with the integrated norms and Visual-motor skills and was therefore referred to help aid in connection with school start. It entailed. frequent visits to the eye doctor since both my parents and the school meant that I had normal vision. They showed that I Got away in things as if they were not there, and that I had no idea about my own position in the room, and things around me.

The environment perceived me as lazy, difficult and badly brought up since I was a child with normal intelligence. The elementary school was a true hell, where I didn’t get some understanding, but was forced to do the tasks I had no opportunities or conditions to clear. I immersed myself as 8-year-old in the medical books to find out how the body worked inside. I was looking for answers there, presumably to understand how the human being is put together, and why I was so different.

The failure of tactile perception (the touch sense) and visual perception
Perception is a creative or constructive process, where the impressions are organized and attributed opinion. I have Visual-spatial errors that I must work around. that I do not recognize objects, facial expressions and forms right away.

I got like 12-year-old Infectious Mononucleosis (mono), a viral infection that causes lymph glands, especially on the neck, to swell. The doctor asked me to follow through on about glands but decreased in size it was the start of a long nightmare, a nightmare that still characterizes me. I’m unable to define shapes and size through touch, nor copy from drawings. The judging and feel through the senses were an impossible task for me. I was unable to set the correct size and thought this lymph glands changed the size every day, something it did not do. This confused me, and I did not understand how the doctor could believe that the lymph nodes had been normal size again.

Perception is the sense perceptions or sensory perceptions, and the subsequent interpretation. It happens in two steps: A sensory organ is stimulated, which then causes an experience. The lack of the ability I had to judge the size and shape through the sense of touch (tactile) is a common dysfunction related to the NLD. This created a fear in me from childhood, because what I felt and so, did not match other people’s perception and opinion. I developed anxiety because of that I failed to consider myself.

I was eventually referred to the Child and youth mental for what I call obsessive-compulsive query. I managed not to interpret the world through the eyes and had to constantly have the confirmation of the things. I could e.g. ask if there really was such a banana or a horse should look like. I needed a verbal confirmation that what I observed with eyes voted. It was perceived as a forced query or questioning that I asked so many questions. I developed strong school anxiety and was physically sick of not understand other children. I was bullied and deceived, because I took everything literally, and this led to a sadness I myself in when having problems with to feel on.

Illustration from Pixabay. One can live in the city and yet feel isolated.

Some of the most difficult with is that there the NLD is so many people know about the difficulties of, or understand them, is in many ways a hidden disability. NLD is only 1-10 percent of all learning disabilities (is in a bit of doubt about the percentage distribution), which means that it occurs in only 1 percent of 01.0-the general population. NLD creates a big gap between what I know I have the potential and ability to do, and that I can do in each situation.

It is like having the hard disk and the components to a computer from the 90 ‘s, but do not have enough RAM to run the programs I rods at the same time. It feels like that I’m constantly fighting with your head, that is my hard drive, to reach the capacity that is required to run the current operating system. The concept of nonverbal learning disabilities is misleading, for the difficulties affect not only learning, but the whole spectrum of life. It interprets in a world that black and white, have a literal interpretation, does not manage to put the details together into a whole, have difficulty interpreting facial expressions, gestures and Visual information, makes the world different and unpredictable for a NLDer to be Navigate in it.

When you lose so much interpersonal communication and social game rules, draws you slowly away to reduce the stress and the anxiety it social. NLD creates in other words communication barriers, and it’s frustrating for those who experience it. This constant struggle makes people with NLD more exposed/vulnerable to mental illness. NLD is for me like to live in a parallel world inside the private world we all live in. I’m right there with the people around me, me I’m there without synchronization. It requires a constant, coordinated effort to reach the interface. My survival strategy is to to prepare, over-processes and over-analyze the most things. My brain never shuts off.

The fact that I have a literal interpretation has led to many misunderstandings and much despair. I was, as a child, described to have significant problems with dealing with reality (I interpreted reality differently). “She is lying smooth and unbridled, herself seems to believe in those she says.” Being able to understand complex conversations, and take meaning out of this, has been some of my great challenges.

Function Disruption has also expressed itself in dyspraktiske difficulties, which have a background in the triggered emotionality in situations where I do not experience mastery. I had great difficulties writing well enough for others to understand. It was difficult to find the correct position on the sheet and to customize the sizes of the letters. It was a completely impossible Task To learn looping font, which was the most common typeface at the time. I had bad reading skills as well and I sleit with understanding the content.

Mathematics was the big monster. I didn’t have the numbers concept, rained on my fingers, and didn’t understand how I was going to put up the math. I still don’t understand. I developed school fright because the anxiety of performing in these two subjects was too great. It probably hangs with the fact that I lived so long with major social and emotional differences I wasn’t able to To Forse. I sleit to communicate, and developed anxiety and depression at a young age.

Depression proved often as a sneaking tendency toward slow melancholy, but the greatest fight was the fear that came creeping when I as a teenager failed to understand and interpret people around me. I once read an analogy used for visualizing anxiety. One can think of anxiety as a cup of water where the water illustrates the anxiety level. Everyone has a cup, but the water level is different from person to person. Some start off at a higher level because they have a chemical imbalance and they find that the level increases faster than others. Some Angstfremkallende episodes can provide a lasting effect. That, and that one does not quite understand how things are connected and makes sense, can be some of the reasons why depression occurs.

I was confused by my own confusion, but after a long exposition I now know that it is a name and a reason behind. It is easy to see now that the reflections I made, and the confusion surrounding the confusion, was my way of portraying the Maze Like the unidentified difficulties had created for me.

A non-verbal disability is Primarily characterized by of a large gap between verbal and non-verbal skills. This creates awareness challenges because the brain can not communicate with itself in time. It processes the information at two different speed, the verbal part and the non-verbal part of working at a different pace. It explains the crooked profile. The verbal part of my brain portrays truth through language, but it is not able to work together with the non-verbal, spatial and visual function. That’s because Uensstemmelsen affects my work memory.

Since my brain runs at two different speeds, the shelf in the head is extremely small. It has, to continue the visual, 3 slots instead of 15. That means the verbal skills can’t be run on the same frequency, and I get tired and frustrated. I live in a constant fear of ERROR. It would happen when I must deal with more items than I can manage to keep on the shelf in my head at once.

I have in my adult life seen how important communication can be. When it is mixed with mental illness, the lack of communication skills can be Filled with anxiety. NLD deserves research and broader awareness, because No matter What support is available if you can not communicate, you have no choice but to live trapped in solitary isolation.

Research on NLD says that this function Loss Affects the entire view and experience of the world. It is said that 65 percent of the communication in a Conversation is non-verbal, so for one with NLD it can be incredibly difficult to interact with others. Children can be labeled as annoying or attention-seeking when in reality it is a behavior that is due to social function cuts. It is easy to isolate itself from the social interaction because one does not understand the whole action of the interaction with others. Anything that is not black, and white is hard to understand.

NLD-The picture changes with age. I’ve been looking for research on this but not found anything. I think simply it does not yet exist, because it has not gone long enough time since this NLD was discovered. There may not be enough adults with a diagnosis. I find that the functions that have given NLDere challenges earlier are becoming more noticeable when one has passed 45 years. The forces are unchanged, while the weaknesses get bigger.

Anita Bekker Larsen

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